Mid age crisis

I don't know whether I've gone insane but I think my mid age crisis is underway even though I'm only in my early twenties. I've always wanted to be a software engineer but little did I know how pathetic a job it really is. I never considered management as an option in my life until recently. Life is full of uncertainties and I've realized that. When you desperately want something and go behind it earnestly, it eludes you. On the contrary, if you never bother to notice something, it follows you everywhere. I'm experiencing mid age crisis right now. I don't know whether I'm going in the right direction.